angel's story ❤ ❤

an everyday question

2012-02-01T21:49:00.001+08:00

"who loves alexis?"
"papa & mummy."

no soiled diaper

2012-01-31T21:29:00.003+08:00

for 2 days, you have been pooing not in your diaper, but in the toilet bowl.
keep up the good job! :)

deep shit

2012-01-30T22:34:00.004+08:00

we smack you thats why your thighs are red and swollen.
we smack you thats why you cry.
we smack you because you screamed at the top of your lungs.
we smack you because you threatened to bang your head against the high chair.
we smack you because we want you to learn.
we smack you because we love you.
we smack you thats why our hearts ache.

7,948,800 seconds!

2012-01-26T08:34:00.001+08:00

happy 3 months!

milestone missed

2012-01-25T16:52:00.002+08:00

junior is now turning round & round while trying to flip herself!
argh, this is another milestone i am sure to miss when i am back to work :(

stop complaining!

2012-01-25T07:46:00.006+08:00

so finally chinese new year is over for me because no more visitings, no more being bored and it's back to my normal lifestyle. seriously except for the long weekend, i think chinese new year is just another long unneccessary break because all i do is heap onto the goodies which equates to extra calories. most of the times, i rather just stay in my cosy zone with ayc and junior.

this cny quite often, i find myself getting stressed with the fact that i am surrounded by mothers, each of whom had gone through motherhood. the sheer magnitude of their parenting advises going on simultaneously in my proximity makes me uncomfortable. one advise come after another and i multiply it by all the mothers around me - !!! it's just so ______ to think about it.

are we made to know everything about one another?
perhaps that's a reason why we wear clothes.

but i still think the world would be a better place if everyone could be just a little more adept at putting themselves in each others' shoes. junior might not be that best baby and i am not the best mommy on earth but at least i know when she is sleepy, when she is hungry, when she is happy, and how she like to be carried, her favourite sleeping position and her favourite game.

okays, complains end here.
so work starts tmr. all over again.

obligation to tradition

2012-01-23T23:12:00.008+08:00

honestly, i have never liked any formalities and seeing relatives like once in a year, having to face questions about my future and when will my second baby comes even though junior just came out 3 months ago. most of the time, i'm just stuffing my face with new year goodies, listen to the mahjong tiles clash onto each other and look at my little nieces, wondering what will junior be like when she grows up.

so, many thoughts came to my mind when i saw many of my nieces and nephews. some of them are indeed not what i want junior to become while the minority are good.

as strange as it sounds, i feel i am really behaving like a mother.
okie, time to source for playgroups!

新年快乐!

2012-01-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

你收到压岁钱了吗?

the princess of ang

2012-01-21T21:00:00.003+08:00

with a new high chair and a new set of lamaze wrist rattle & foot finder, its makes being our baby dumbo looks so much brighter.

the ang's pantry

2012-01-21T20:54:00.003+08:00

today we have our little reunion dinner in our little comfort zone :))
all were great, we enjoyed ourselves, our stomachs were filled, junior was good, the not-so-finished spring cleaning went great.

so, dinner was all about steamboat - the everything all throw in a pot.
i think, its the kind of comfort food that one must eat during cny, especially on a rainy day!

sound of thunder and pouring rain

2012-01-21T17:24:00.002+08:00

thou shall not respond to "thunder" in the midst of lalaland-ing :)
because it's ALEXIS!

get motivated!

2012-01-20T22:35:00.002+08:00

motivation will help junior get started - like now! (or soon)

it helps her keep moving,
it helps her do more than others,
it makes the growing up journey fun.

no wonder motivation plays an important role in everyone's journey to success.

so! you! get motivated now!

downward pull of life

2012-01-15T10:54:00.002+08:00

i am surprised that this weird kiddo of mine understand newton's law of gravity at her young age.

she understands that by looking down on the floor, she will be able to produce more saliva and thus more bubbles...

REAL baby

2012-01-15T10:50:00.001+08:00

papa says this is a picture of a REAL baby - naked with only a diaper.

my resolution

2012-01-15T10:47:00.002+08:00

got this book at half price in vivocity.
ahh, how i wish i can be like jaime teo who spent 5 years perfecting her recipe for cupcakes.

a note to self: if ever i have a chance to go back to the states (maybe in end 2012?), i'm gonna perfect my recipe for my cupcakes!

thoughts after a marketing trip

2012-01-15T09:55:00.002+08:00

breakfasting cum marketing for the three of us at fernvale point has been a norm, but today was a little special because junior was surrounded by a group of old grannies touching her little hands and pinching her cheeks.

it might not had been expected, but it's an amusement for her parents. most importantly, we are proud that this little junior is our creation :)

junior and us

2012-01-14T22:48:00.003+08:00

now,
thank you for the laughter, smiles and the cranky cries.
thank you for the warmth in your hugs.
thank you for the love you are willingly share with us.
thank you for being here.

growing up is tough, but aren't you glad that we are here :)

a journey to vivocity

2012-01-14T18:28:00.003+08:00

today, for some appearant reason, i want to be down to harbourfront.
it was quality family time, with loots from mothercare, heatwave, pageone & marks and spencers,
there's something for everyone,
not forgetting how my naughty sweetie pie was getting attention from people, ohh yay yeah!

her new hobby found!

2012-01-14T18:18:00.000+08:00

...playing with saliva

if i love you enough

2012-01-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

if i love you enough, i will share my walmart-bought jim tao with you! :)

the long awaited news

2012-01-11T21:39:00.003+08:00

...is delayed to feb!

what's with the bonus,
or rather the boss.

大白兔奶糖

2012-01-09T14:15:00.004+08:00

your papa said you smell like sugarless 大白兔奶糖.
so your mommy gonna give you your toothbrush first and a toothpaste this weekend :)

her morning elegance

2012-01-09T13:46:00.002+08:00

i really love how her little hands hold the bottle. it cracks me up very well!

a combination of us

2012-01-09T08:43:00.002+08:00

work has started, not exactly with a bang but just okay.

however thes days,i feel nothing except total and complete love for my junior. yesterday and today i am flowing over with irritability and so much negativity in general that i am pretty sure it is hard to love anything else.

how is this happening!
ahhh, life.

getting closer to okay

2012-01-09T08:16:00.001+08:00

hoooray to junior who slept through the night! :))))))

dilemma decision

2012-01-08T21:55:00.001+08:00

to go or not to go?
argh!

do you want a smile

2012-01-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

so, on friday, coincidentally our rest day, darling dear, junior and i embarked on the trip to orchard road. the weather was really warm that day. after confinement, orchard road had always been a-place-that-i-must-go-asap, so i'm pretty happy that day. but, being stucked with a 10 weeks old baby became another thing; more interesting in fact :D

so we had a random idea of looking for april goh in taka nespresso.
the people there were pretty funky, especially when they went gah gah over junior,
in hope to get a big smile on her face.

so, next visit to orchard road in feb,
hopefully.

when papa-goh brings junior away...

2012-01-03T14:42:00.001+08:00

i still prefer to hear junior's screaming to having an empty house on my own.

the role of us

2012-01-02T21:22:00.003+08:00

we are here to protect you.

we are here to provide solutions.

we are here to minimise pain.

we are here to listen.

we are here to provide comfort.

we are here to love you :))

on a random note, junior had her first dose of 6-in-1 on 23rd dec 2011 cry-less and tear-less, and also fever-less after 11 days of monitoring! yayyness!

back to battlefield

2012-01-02T21:16:00.001+08:00

so, after all this not so long holiday, battle officially starts tomorrow!

what if this is not what i'm looking forward to?

walk, walking, walked.

2012-01-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

welcome 2012

2012-01-01T01:39:00.001+08:00

in a blink of the eye, 2011 has came to an end.
i'm quite surprised that i'm actually still surviving. :D
finally, or not so finally, i think i quite miss junior being a newborn quite abit but loving her more and more every seconds!

holidays's out, and work is in!
i'm still not adapting well to the going-back-to-work reality, sadly.
i'm stoning more often, caught falling asleep at weird hours, gaining weight but i'm trying to adjust!

so about parenting, though tough but i'm learning. good enough, isnt it? (((:

new friend found!

2011-12-27T13:43:00.002+08:00

junior is glad to know that there's somebody else who shares her saliva :))

activity that makes her happy

2011-12-26T21:03:00.001+08:00

she made her way to happiness! :)

i so missing a white christmas!

2011-12-25T06:39:00.002+08:00

if only the rain droplets were snow flakes..

our xmas dinner @home :)

2011-12-24T22:49:00.001+08:00

a baby santa with a big tummy

2011-12-24T22:13:00.006+08:00

a pretty christmas eve out with junior, and off we went in search for her first christmas pressie. she was very good, except that she has issue controlling her fart.

something to commemorate her first xmas, something that she can keep for life.
pressie left unwrapped, hoping for the day she can tear open the wrapping paper :)

merry first christmas, baby dumbo
- with love, papa & mommy

all i want for xmas

2011-12-24T21:55:00.004+08:00

fast forward 4 years 8 months and 1 week, and here we are: happy, together, everyday.

reconciling three diametrically different personalities and characters certainly hasn't been a bed of roses, nor have we ever expected it to be so.

but working together for one other has helped us grow so much; stronger, closer, more content.

all the love overload. thank you both for these (:
merry christmas, my dearests.

rest if you must, but don't cry

2011-12-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

her eyelids are so heavy that if you let her head rest for like a split second on a flat surface, she'll fall asleep :)

sacrifice

2011-12-23T22:52:00.001+08:00

"Sacrifice is a part of life. It’s supposed to be.
It’s not something you regret. It’s something to aspire to.
Little sacrifices. Big sacrifices.
A mother works so her son can go to school.
A daughter moves home to care of her sick father…

Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you’re not really losing it.
You’re just passing it on to someone else.”

- The Five People You Meet In Heaven, Mitch Albom

a happy injection!

2011-12-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

i stared at the plaster and i wondered why does a baby need so many injections.
oh wells, junior is a brave warrior for the day!

do i need to say more?
cry-less! tearless! :))

on a side note, 54cm junior is now 4.7 kilo @ 8 weeks.
mommy angel gonna have strong arms.

thoughts on a friday night

2011-12-16T22:36:00.003+08:00

so, i have been parenting for 1 month and 20 days.

it was a big jump from single to attached, from darling dear's wife to junior's mommy.
it was tough - from learning to accept, to knowing them by heart, to be able to love, to everything else.

i might not be the best wife and mommy around, i might had lose my direction in the midst of all these,
but, i'm glad i'm still in this :)

angel is a pillow

2011-12-13T16:23:00.003+08:00

papa-ang learnt that when junior is sleepy and crying crankily, it is just informing him that she wants her mommy.

counting down to another happy family day

2011-12-13T13:29:00.007+08:00

the thing why i love carrier to a pram: keeping junior close to my heart - literally.

my life as mommy

2011-12-13T11:31:00.004+08:00

one thing that parenting ever taught me,
to cry, angry, laugh and love at the same time :)))

to protect junior's brain, turn off the tv

2011-12-12T13:46:00.008+08:00

By Brandon Keim, wired.com

A decade ago, the American Academy of Pediatrics suggested that parents limit TV consumption by children under two years of age. The recommendations were based as much on common sense as science, because studies of media consumption and infant development were themselves in their infancy.

The research has finally grown up. And though it’s still ongoing, it’s mature enough for the AAP to release a new, science-heavy policy statement on babies watching television, videos or any other passive media form.

Their verdict: It’s not good, and probably bad.

Media, whether playing in the background or designed explicitly as an infant educational tool, has "potentially negative effects and no known positive effects for children younger than 2 years,” concluded the AAP’s report, released Oct. 18 at the Academy’s annual meeting in Boston and scheduled for November publication in the journal Pediatrics. “Although infant/toddler programming might be entertaining, it should not be marketed as or presumed by parents to be educational.”

Since the AAP made its original recommendations in 1999, passive entertainment screens—televisions, DVD players, computers streaming video—have become ubiquitous, and the average 12-month-old gets between one and two hours of screen time per day. (Interactive screens, such as iPads and other tablets, are considered in the new recommendations.) The 0- to 2-year age group has become a prime target for commercial educational programming, often used by parents convinced that it’s beneficial.

As screens proliferated, so did research. “There have been about 50 studies that have come out on media use by children in this age group between 1999 and now,” said Ari Brown, a pediatrician and member of the AAP committee that wrote the new report.

Those studies have found that children don’t really understand what’s happening on a screen until they’re about 2 years old. Once they do, media can be good for them, but until then television is essentially a mesmerizing, glowing box.

Used at night, TV might help kids fall asleep, but that appears to come at a delayed cost of subsequent sleep disturbances and irregularities. While the result of TV-induced sleep problems hasn’t been directly studied, poor sleep in infants is generally linked to problems with mood, behavior and learning.

At other times, media consumption comes with opportunity costs, foremost among them the silence of parents. “While television is on, there’s less talking, and talk time is very important in language development,” said Brown.

Three studies since 1999 have tracked educational television use and language development, and they found a link between increased TV time and developmental delays. Whether that’s a cause or effect—parents who leave kids in front of televisions might simply be poor teachers—isn’t clear, nor are the long-term effects, but the AAP called the findings “concerning.” In the same vein, there may also be a link to attention problems.

Even when media plays in the background, it distracts babies from play, an activity that is known to have deep developmental benefits. And for parents who use media to carve out a few precious, necessary free minutes in busy schedules, Brown recommended letting kids entertain themselves.

“We know you can’t spend 24 hours a day reading to your child and playing with them. That’s okay. What’s also okay is your child playing independently,” she said. “That’s valuable time. They’re problem-solving. They’re using their imagination, thinking creatively and entertaining themselves.”

As for iPads and other kid-friendly interactive computing devices, Brown said research has barely started, much less come to conclusions. But she counseled skepticism of promotional claims, which have been made with some of the same zeal as products of now-dubious standing, such as the controversial Baby Einstein videos.

“The way these kids’ programs came out was, ‘These are really educational! They’re going to help your kids learn!’ Well that’s great, but prove it. Show me the science,” Brown said. “I don’t have a problem with touch screens, and they’re not necessarily bad. But we need to understand how this affects kids.”

we have decided that it is important to develop good habits since the day she was born. it is essential to protect her brain, but it is more important to not let her become a couch potato. in other words, AAP guidelines are going to be on the top of our list. try.

as working parents, it is gonna be more convenient to have junior place in front of the tv or ipad. but as junior's parents, i believe it's most important to build a understanding relationship with her. in other words, we need to talk to her, play with her, cuddle her and the list goes on, and when we are lucky, junior tireds out faster than us!

yes, you can say that i am being sucha ordinary follower and darling dear is such an old school. but, the relationship we had built with junior doesn't come overnight. it takes a lot. and sometimes, fate plays a part too. so, this is one of the reason why i have been contemplating about moving back to the states for another two years. but, we will see.

tv or no tv,
it's still too soon to tell.

miss miss

2011-12-10T00:36:00.001+08:00

tonight is the night where i choose to take the risk -
to allow junior to abandon her nursery room,
because she's going to her grandparent's for a night stay.

iprayhopewish for them to have a good friday night.
ohh, all the aunties and neighbours gonna hate alexis.

the thing about being junior

2011-12-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

...,
you tend to miss out on sleeping on a pillow,
sucking on a pacifier and
sitting in a pram.

with love to you

2011-12-07T18:37:00.001+08:00

"though you threatened to cry with that loud voice of yours,
we will still love you like there is no tomorrow ♥"

in search for curiosity

2011-12-07T14:40:00.002+08:00

caught:
junior lifting up her head, happily looking down whats behind the sofa.
oh, silly silly :)

dad is full of bones

2011-12-05T21:20:00.002+08:00

why is a 5 week old kiddo so fussy about where to lie on?
now, the mommy is not so irritated by her meaty figure.

play moments

2011-12-05T19:14:00.003+08:00

they once said:
life kicks you around sometimes. it scares you and beats you up, but there’s a day when you realize you’re not just a survivor, but you’re a warrior. you're tougher than anything it throws your way.

life is wonderful, even with all the silly stunts you get from papa along the way.

unlocked a lifetime of happiness

2011-12-05T18:36:00.005+08:00

it's been a very hectic, but very fulfilling month.
it's tired me out completely,
but has also provided me with so many wonderful memories which i would keep close to my heart.

i guess this month has been a breakthrough month for me - spiritually, physically, and mentally.

i've been so blessed with a wonderful darling dear whom i feel i'd known for a lifetime.
he tolerates my nonsense and all my weird philosophies.
he tolerates me being weak and lousy when i'm not feeling my best,
he encourages me to wear dresses which i never thought i'll be able to fit in,
he says i love you all the time not just to kill time but because i know he really meant it,
and he actually can stand my ridiculous eating habits.

here's a big shoutout of love to you with such big heart,
i love you, with all my heart. :))

junior is a toy

2011-12-03T23:42:00.002+08:00

watching how papa-ang played with junior on our sofa was fun.

and, the best part,
she was literally climbing on him, as if he was her ladder.

greatness!

i need painkiller

2011-12-03T16:46:00.002+08:00

not a so good time to pull my muscle.
luckily junior is only 3.8kg now @5+ weeks.

family activity

2011-11-30T14:25:00.002+08:00

slow walking has been out favourite activity since our dating days,
and we love it (:
time to get junior in!

not a chore

2011-11-29T20:35:00.002+08:00

today is one of those days where i had to mop the floor while pacifying a crying junior. suddenly i thought, "am I crazy to find such joy in such days?!"

my answer is, "wells, life now seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. i'm loving it. definitely."

this kind of times assured me that i still have my motherly moments :)

i am a macaron-addict

2011-11-29T19:31:00.001+08:00

i'm missing my macarons,
anyone heading to the west?

i'm really happy

2011-11-27T22:40:00.002+08:00

everything seems to be going well, finally (:

i can't thank you enough for being there everyday. the baby languages that we have with each other, the loud cries that you make, always makes our night get better. you are like a dream catcher, sent to take away all the bad dreams and make us smile through sleep.

good job!

2011-11-27T22:35:00.003+08:00

lift up!

i think you are growing to resemble me.
ahhhh, my daughter.

lets keep on cuddling

2011-11-27T21:54:00.002+08:00

this feeling is the best and no you can't deny that.
one sentence: junior is love

wonderful motivation

2011-11-26T15:42:00.002+08:00

hello junior,
you're our biggest motivation ever, you know you complete our life!

a journey to the west

2011-11-26T15:30:00.002+08:00

you know you need to drive to et artisan sweets when you travel to the west.

pass more macarons to angel pleaseee!

26.11.11

2011-11-26T15:21:00.002+08:00

for i know, junior is one month old today.
running out and about! distributing sweeties' cupcakes :)

triple As

2011-11-25T22:16:00.001+08:00

lost count

2011-11-25T15:13:00.001+08:00

confinement period is 4 weeks? 30 days? or 45 days?
anyway papa-goh is good!
angel's confinement ended on 23rd :D

addiction

2011-11-24T17:27:00.002+08:00

you know its payday soon cos
angel is back to online shopping.

love me!

2011-11-23T13:13:00.001+08:00

no matter how many new people i meet along the way, how easy they are to hang out with, how many places i go, at the end of the day, i just want to be with the person who makes me laugh the most. the person who wouldn't judge me from the 1001th mistakes i've made and who understands why i do, what i do.

alexis...

2011-11-23T13:07:00.007+08:00

happy 4 weeks old.

breathe deep. the one month has come to an end. you are 4 weeks older, your heart is 4 weeks stronger, your bones are 4 weeks tougher. it had been a looong 28 days and finally the torturous so-called confinement is over!

our next task on friday...to collect full-month cupcakes from twelve cupcakes

i'm dreaming of life in states

2011-11-21T16:41:00.003+08:00

i finally made my feelings known.
okie, couple more days to freedom and more bonding times :)

and i haven't been myself lately, brainfreezes and frostbites.
trying hard not to be insane.
but really, i'm trying to do a good job here, to be a good daughter, good wife and a good mommy.

not all gold glitters

2011-11-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

she's always this sunshine.
such a clown but a real darling.
you will always be loved, alexis.

the little things that makes the difference

2011-11-14T17:17:00.003+08:00

would you sacrifice your sleep for this smile?
i will.

finally celebrating as a mommy

2011-11-14T14:49:00.004+08:00

happy 28th to me.

this year is different of course, with a 2+ weeks old baby and confining myself at home. for that one instance, i sort of miss my pre-motherhood days. well, just a tiny little but i'm accustomed to the fact that, being a mommy comes with responsibilities, making that choice, it means i should be ready to shift away from my comfort zone. if i have already made that choice, i have to banish whatever negative emotions that may come along with it but i have been enjoying my motherhood thus far.

so my birthday celebration starts at 2.30am with a mini cake bought from the confectionary bakery downstairs. darling dear got junior to say happy birthday to me but only greeted with a "mmm...", but that good enough! :))

what a feeling..

2011-11-14T14:46:00.004+08:00

it is to be junior's mommy.

these days, i've been trying hard to perform the role of a mommy, a good mommy in fact. from learning to breastfeed to changing diaper, bathing and getting to know junior more, everyday is just a learning process :D

night feeding

2011-11-13T01:25:00.002+08:00

every night we only had a couple hours of sleep. and i doubt we will be sleeping long tonight again. but with all the smiles i'm getting from her, everything is just worth it.

communicate. words. speak. connect. feel.

2011-11-09T11:25:00.002+08:00

communication is the very essence to any kinds of relationship. to simply put it, communication is the very fundamental law of the universe for people to connect, to convey a message(s) correctly and to put your feelings across to people you care. without communication, obviously, that would lead to misunderstandings.

don't you find it funny? as children, we learn the alphabets. we learn how to spell and we learn how to communicate with people. we learn everything we possibly can to talk to someone. however, as we grow up, we know the basics and the importance of communication yet, most of the times, when something happens, because of certain reasons (fear, disappointment awkwardness), we tend to shy away from trying to communicate with the other party to work something out. we forgot how to use the words or the words we want to speak, they somehow get stuck between the teeth and the lips. those words never get delivered, messages never get conveyed, we never get to clear the misunderstandings.

on a side note:

- junior is diagnosed juandice-free yesterday and her weight rises from 2.6 to 2.8! now, papa happy, mommy happy and junior is happy! :D
- i left with 1.5 kilos to my pre-pregnancy weight :))

3 years of beautiful

2011-11-08T22:49:00.001+08:00

that's how i look at it. 3 years of something really spectacular. we weren't perfect. there were dark days and days that i thought the sun couldn't compare to us. we were this work of fate that turned into a bond that couldn't be denied, only loved and cherished. our 3 years of beautiful are worth an eternity of memories, and the friendship that comes out of being that to someone, should never be lost. so know from here that i still love you, that i would always do anything for you and a large piece of my heart will always be yours. 3 years of beautiful, really beautiful. thank you for our little creation, thank you for those.

happy 3 years wedding anniversary, my darling dear.

awww....

2011-11-07T11:43:00.002+08:00

who's birthday?

2011-11-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

"我的生日愿望是要little girl快高长大!"

anyway, happy 62th papa-goh!

an everyday surprise

2011-11-05T14:34:00.002+08:00

thank you so much junior alexis!
you have officially made our day!
❤ you.

tell me about it

2011-11-05T11:11:00.001+08:00

what a feeling

2011-11-04T14:35:00.002+08:00

parenthood is such an amazing journey. we are now officially parents and could not be more in love. i cannot begin to describe how much we love our junior and would definitely go through all the pain and heartache again if i knew the ending was such a special little girl. i can still hardly believe that we were blessed with such a miracle and appreciate every single moment i have with her, even on only a few hours sleep. i have never been so happy and am looking forward to all the little adventures to come.

there's always you who love more

2011-11-04T11:36:00.004+08:00

sometimes, i think i'm selfish because i do things my way, i do not spare a thought for people's feelings and i do whatever i feel like just because i hate restrictions. i cannot promise anyone consistency because i cannot keep up with consistency myself. someday, somethings will change because change is the only constant in life. the thing about me is, i do something because i feel like it and most of the time, i don't really have concrete reasons to back certain things i do.

on a side note, it's early November. the irony is, without work, i find myself being busier but much much much much happier.

in 2 days' time, papa-goh is 62.
in 4 days' time, we'll be celebrating our 3rd year wedding anniversary.
in 5 days' time, junior is 2 weeks old.
in 10 days' time, i'm turning 28.
in 26 days' time, i'm confinement-free and junior is 1 month old!
in 10 weeks' time, its back to work for me :((

加油!

2011-11-04T11:25:00.000+08:00

3 more kilos to my pre-pregnancy weight :D

a name chosen

2011-11-04T11:21:00.000+08:00

Ang Yu Yan Alexis, 洪语嫣

sense of guilt

2011-11-03T23:16:00.001+08:00

after weeks of living with a breast pump without a life, i have decided to just let the milk supply die and enjoy the full glory of junior. no more uncomfortable pains, no more 24 hours spend in the room(!), best of all, junior is gaining weight.

4 weeks of jail time. i hate confinement and i have a confession to make: i bath everyday with my victoria's secret.

formulas

2011-11-02T21:37:00.001+08:00

ang yew chye + angel goh = ang yu yan alexis
(A+) + (B+) = (AB+)

a lesson to learn

2011-11-02T14:01:00.003+08:00

Switching to formula

Most mother who switch to formula in the early weeks do so with regret - 90 per cent of women who switch before six weeks would like to continue. This means they can feel guilty and defensive about switching.

If this applies to you, think about giving yourself a break. Feed your baby closely and responsively, just as you would with breastfeeding. Often, it's the intimacy that mothers miss when breastfeeding stops, for whatever reason. It needn't disappear. In fact, there's nothing to stop you holding your baby to your breast whenever you want to, even if you're no longer breastfeeding.

Guilt is the emotion we feel when we know we've done something deliberately wrong - this just doesn't apply to infant feeding, when parents work out what's likely to be best for them and their baby in their own particular circumstances.

If breastfeeding didn't work out well, understanding what happened can help, as can considering where you might get support if there's a next time with another baby.

all I know now is stressed mommy gives out stressed milk, and will produce a stressed baby.

i am constantly learning to be a mommy and i think i did the right thing.

my lifetime career

2011-11-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

i want to be a happy mommy to my dearest alexis

full stop

at 5.05am.

2011-10-29T19:31:00.003+08:00

it took me 1 hour of pain, alot of grunting/cursing/screaming/howling before i decided on a shot of epidural. but i pretty much like (love) how my junior turns out. this will be my early 28th birthday present, for myself :))

p.s alexis is 2.805g with a height of 49cm and a head circumference of 32cm.

first glimpse of this world

2011-10-29T10:19:00.001+08:00

i'm missing my tummy, missing my labour
but
i'm loving my life right now!

submitted to epidural

2011-10-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

everybody wants a life without pain. and what does it get you?
thanks to the inventor of epidural, i can still facebook and blog when my contractions reaches a high peak :)

当我们同在一起

2011-10-25T13:30:00.002+08:00

从明天起, 我们是爸爸妈妈咯!
哈哈哈!

couple-ly breakfast

2011-10-25T10:13:00.000+08:00

today, i had a good breakfast despite it being macdonalds sausage egg macmuffin but the hour spent talking about our feelings, my pregnancy journey, our plans for junior, and all that jazz just really feels different from the other breakfast that we always have.

oh, there's so many thoughts jutting about in my head right now. can't really string them up decently to construct sentences.

on a side note, you promise that you will not forsake the dumbos
and i am loving you for it! :)

showers of encouragement

2011-10-25T08:20:00.002+08:00

in this life, i know i have a group of friends whom I can depend on for life.
cliché as it is, i can’t thank god enough, for everyone's blessing and encouragement :D

Tomorrow.

2011-10-24T21:58:00.002+08:00

as i'm writing this, i'm 2 hours and 2 minutes away from 25th, getting ready for bed in awhile. i took a day off work today because dr adrian insisted that i go for a full growth scan as junior is too small. and it's unbelievable how much she is weighing now at 37 weeks and 2 days. to be exact, 2475g. might be even lesser in reality though. and because of this unbelievable fact, junior has to be out. dr adrian illustrates to darling dear and me that my womb is now like an oxygen-lack room, and we need to open the door to get fresh air.

so in about 9 hours, i gotta get up for preparation and roll along with the motherhood in life. i don't know, i am envious of people who really enjoy the delivery process and can't wait to get admitted. it's not that I'm not looking forward to carrying and playing with junior but i think i'm also loving where i am right now minus away the hip ache. ironically, all good things come to an end and now i'm on the journey to another terrific phase in my life. i'm going to ride through my tuesday and see junior on deepavali. everything will be good, I know.

goodnight, let me dream of something nice tonight.

oct or nov baby?

2011-10-22T20:21:00.002+08:00

brown discharge,
mummy-goh says its a sign that labour is going to start.
dr adrian says not to do anything.

is this a sign?

2011-10-22T11:45:00.001+08:00

okie, will know it tonight.

my morning calls

2011-10-21T08:18:00.002+08:00

with all the movings, turnings and kickings
junior knows it all.

i am so extremely happy and loving every bits of it!
and that's really enough :)

hoping for the best

2011-10-20T20:39:00.003+08:00

i had the worst thursday in weeks.

you know how thursday are to me.
anticipating start with happy ends.
for i know, there is no smile today.

how i wish time can be fastforwded, for the very first time.
pass me some macarons now, to take away my worries, to let junior gain weight.